• Bella - 02/03/12 17:31
• Miss You.. Miss you... Miss you... You are always in my heart..

• Dragos (San Diego) - 01/26/12 20:18
• My thoughts and prayers are with you today ...

• Parash (San Jose) - 05/25/11 3:26
• I dont know you but I hope I dont dishonor your memory and you sacrifice. I hope I could achieve at least a lil bit of goodness from you pureness.God bless your mom and your family.Thanks for your sacrifice.

• Bella Loki - 01/26/11 12:39
• Miss you... The time passes, but you stay strong in our memories....

• мама (san diego) - 12/31/10 23:08
• Мурадик, ты видешь я первый раз прикоснурась к этим клавишам...
  Я пишу тебе в других тетрадках всё время - ты же знаешь? Год назад я намного больше ощущала Присутствие. Это было крохотным, но спасением. Я не знаю куда всё девалось. Я не знаю, как долго я это вынесу сыночек. Здесь опять эти дурацкие праздники... Конечно, ради Твоей сестры, я делаю всё, что могу. Она - достойное продолжение тебя и я очень хочу не быть ей обузой, бесконечно по тебе тоскуя. Хоть бы вернулось ТО ощущение. Я жду. Я надеюсь. Мы всегда были есть и будем вместе, Мурадик.Будь счастлив там, где ты есть. Благослови тебя Господь. LovMom

• rauf jahangir (baku) - 10/29/10 13:26
• i wanna know much about murad
  Allah rehmet elesin!!!!!!!

• Fuad Javadov (Los Angeles) - 10/27/10 2:36
• Allah Rehmet elesin!

• Dustin (Dixon illinois) - 08/26/10 8:40
• You dont know me but some how our fates were intertwined, there is a guy, mike eherdt, whom left on may 1st on a 4514 mile run across america placing a flag with a heroes name on that had not made it home from iraq. On sunday i had the distinct honor and priviledge to join him on sixteen miles of his journey and i got to carry and place on of the flags. The one i recieved to place was Mourad's flag. I began to think of what i was doing with my life when i was 20 yrs old and can assure it was not as great a thing as him. I am very proud and honored to have carried that flag and i have retrieved the flag and would like to send it along with some other things to the family. I am a father of two and could not imagine my life without them, that said i will be sure that this courageous man will never be forgoten I have pictures and printouts from this web page to pass to my children so that they my understand the importance of our service men and women. Thank you again for the courage and the gift your son/brother gave to me and our country.

• Little Sissy Shayla (Berkeley, CA) - 08/10/10 0:24
• I made it, Mourad, I'm 21 year old :] Danny and Andrew came to visit for my birthday in Berkeley so I had a lot of brotherly love surrounding me yesterday; we had a great time, but nothing compares to you. I love you and miss you too much. Stay by my side and be my older brother always.

• Mike (Glendora) - 07/17/10 15:56
• Well Buddy... what are we gonna do... Nothing gets easier, and i'm getting old too quick. My grandma passed yesterday, but I was happy she did. Shes no longer in pain, but it makes me think about you... What happened was unfair, and I want your family to know that even though I've been gone (going through major life changes) that i'm still here for anyone who just wants to talk. Miss you buddy...

• Sue (San Diego) - 05/31/10 20:24
• Mourad, you represent what is wonderful in this world. You have a loving family and friends who will always remember you as you were in life and as you will be in the ever after. Sue

• your little sister - 04/04/10 17:17
• miss you miss you miss you everday always.

• Jackie (San Diego) - 04/02/10 20:39
• I never met you but I know your Mother and your Lika-mama. You are with my Dad -- who you will love -- John Cissne and my two boys -- who are your brothers -- Cameron Paul and Robert Ryan. Sending you all love until we meet... again, jtk

• Lika (San Diego) - 04/02/10 19:48
• On the bright, sunny Spring day, on April 2, 1984 I woke up and heard amazing news... my little nephew was born, someone who changed my life forever. He became an anchor to everything in my turbulent teenage years, someone I wanted to protect and care for... he became my first child. Then we grew up together - Mourad and Lika-mama... He made me laugh, I couldn't live without him; I learned unconditional love through my love for Mourad; he taught me to care for others more than myself... When I went on my first travels, all I could think about is bringing him gifts and seeing his golden curls and smile, when we saw each other,... he would embrace me tightly and it felt good... we would hang out together, and i loved taking little Mouradik to work or when I was hanging out with friends. He was so charming, everyone loved him - well behaved, smart, analytical, but most importantly funny... his sense of humor and understanding of the world was apparent at the age of 2... and of course, he was an awesome little dancer, who gathered crowds at the Caspian resort we would go to in the summer... moving as if he was raised in the Bronx, he had a sense of rhythm and such feel for music... Ahh, how I miss you Mourad today. It is your birthday, it is one amazing day when you came to this world and you will always be alive, in my heart and through amazing memories.
  
  Not sure how much more time until we meet again, but no matter how long, you are always with me.
  
  Yours, LIka-mama forever

• Marie (Palo Alto) - 04/02/10 6:36
• Happy Birthday!

• Rufat Ragimov (San Diego) - 03/28/10 17:05
• Mourad, my son,
  
  Your birthday is coming up soon but you are not getting older.
  This year Shayla and Tammy will become older than you on this earth.
  
  As I report to you periodically, nothing has changed in this world.
  Only science and technology is moving forward.
  Large Hadron Collider getting up to speed... fascinating.
  New gadgets and gizmo's ... very entertaining.
  ...
  Couple of years ago, I have discovered musician Brad Mehldau.
  He became my favorite jazz composer and improviser.
  After I have wrote him a letter expressing my feelings about his music and have mentioned this website, and guess what, I've got a reply!
  Here is the excerpt from his letter to me.
  
  …
  I was deeply moved reading about your son, Mourad - especially the link to the forum that allows friends and family to write about him. And to read some of what he wrote as well - he was clearly an intelligent, thinking individual who had an interesting worldview.
  
  I cannot imagine, being a father of young children, what your loss, and your family's loss is, to loose him like that. I can only offer my heartfelt condolences. I have deep respect and gratitude for all the men and women in the armed forces, and there is not a day that goes by, for me at least, when I do not stop and think about the hardships they are facing at any given moment, and the sacrifices that their family members must endure, like yourself. Especially now, during the holiday season.
  
  Brad Mehldau.
  

• Tammy - 02/17/10 14:09
• Mourad Mourad Mourad... I love you...

• Kenan Ahmadov (Tokyo, Japan) - 02/07/10 13:01
• Rest in peace...
  

• shayla - 01/27/10 22:04
• Agh Mourad, you never cease to amaze me. You're still my best friend, love you always.

• Rufat Ragimov (San Diego) - 01/26/10 0:51
• Today is January 26th 2010.
  It’s been 5 interesting years from that day.
  
  Mourad, here is another one of your writings,
  I want to share it with your friends. I hope you do not mind.
  
  ***********************************************
  I have realized a lot of shit lately.
  Some of it is from what my mom told me, but I began to feel it even before she told me. She just helped me to put it into words.
  One thing I should make clear is that I’m coming from a pure point of view.
  What I mean by a pure point of view is hard to explain so bare with me on this one…
  
  When I was 16, an event in my life made me realize that everything is infinite and there is no such thing as a past or future, there is only now, the present moment.
  After realizing this I began no longer care about things I could have done differently, because it has already happened, so all that matters is what you do in the present moment, but always learn from your experiences, this way you can be productive.
  I think that people are no more than bunch of brains doing their thing and always were.
  I do not believe in any higher beings.
  People say they don’t know what else exists in the universe, but I do…
  EVERYTHING EMAGINABLE!!!
  I think this because I think the universe is infinite which means there is absolutely NO END which means that anything that anyone can ever imagine or think of can and cannot exist, depending on everything.
  Any Questions?
  
  So what I mean by a pure point of view is that I’m a human on the planet Earth and so are you, and we are all having a great time and I would like to share my thoughts with you.
  Oh, and to add on to my philosophy… infinity is like a number line.
  ∞ <- (from infinity)... -6 -5 -4 -3 -2 -1 0 1 2 3 4 5 6... (to infinity) -> ∞
  It’s infinite both ways, and Zero is the present moment (the only thing that matters), (the only thing that truly exists). So as I was saying, I would like to share my thoughts with you about feelings during life.
  Feelings during life.
  I think that you can live a life a lot happier and you will be more appreciative of what you have if you just learn to enjoy the moment. Any moment, and every moment. Cuz remember, I’m coming at you from the pure point of view, why give a fuck about anything, you will die always. I mean all you really have to do to be happy is not to give a fuck. Just do what you feel, do what you naturally feels right for you.
  I mean if you are jealous of someone, don’t deny it to yourself, just realize it and say “hey holly shit, I’m so fucking jealous, I want to kill that person” and then think about it and learn from it, and go jerk off, and go to sleep cuz that’s all you gotta do!
  Another thing is when you’re working on a project or trying to learn something in order to master it, you have to enjoy every moment in the process. If not, if you are unhappy but plan to be happy when your project succeeds, you might not ever find that happiness because it always include suffering and nasty greenish yellow substances, so be happy always.
  Even when your boyfriend or girlfriend or mom or dad or any fucking body is yelling at you, try and make a step back and watch it like a movie, even in hot situations, just like be like “Holly shit! This person is trippin!” It’s funnier that way, and that way you can think more clear, and have patience, and have fun noticing all the bullshit that is going on cuz non of it matters, nothing matters only what you do, that’s it.
  Only you matter, cuz you are you, you are your mind, nobody will ever have anything to do with you unless you let them. It’s all in the mind, use it to your advantage… if you want.
  
  /Mourad.
  

• Shayla (Berkeley, CA.) - 01/18/10 1:59
• Miss You <3

• Mike (Glendora,CA) - 01/07/10 23:21
• R.I.P.
  Remembering, Always.

• Sue (San Diego) - 10/21/09 23:37
• I was lucky enough to become part of your extended family many years ago and think of you often. You are greatly missed by many people. Your ideals and goals were lofty and envied. You will always be in the minds and thoughts of those who remain behind.

• James Cathcart (Boulder, Colorado) - 09/05/09 23:50
• Hey man,
  
  In your honor. http://www.jcathcart.com/images/mourad_flag.jpg
  
  I don't know if HTML is turned on here, but I'll try to put the image here as well. If not everyone can download the image from the URL above. Miss you bro.
  
  

• Rufat Ragimov (San Diego) - 07/12/09 0:16
• I will be posting some of Mourad’s writings as we go… here you go…
  
  The human body.
  
  The human body consists of bones, muscles, blood, hair, cartridge, skin, fat, veins and arteries. I’m going to focus on chemicals. The human body consists of chemicals. There are many chemicals and hormones such as testosterone and estrogen. These chemicals flow throughout the human body and can change the way human “feels”. The human brain is a chemical factory. There are so many combinations of a different chemicals and hormones in the human brain that a type of electro-magnetic environment is created and this allows for there to be massive amounts of electrical signals to be sent throughout the body. Nerves that run throughout your body connect to the brain allows different parts of your body to communicate via these extremely complex matrix of nerves sending electrical signals back and fourth.
  I guess most people think of “Love” and other type of emotions as these magical little things that pop up whenever they want to… … well, I bet these people go to church and prey to “God” to save them from evil monsters that live under their beds and I bet those same people still believe in Santa Clause.
  Wake up and smell your anus.
  It stinks doesn’t it? Do you want to know why it stinks so got damn mother fucking bad? Have you ever even thought about it? Well let me tell you something. It would take at leas 20 pages of text to explain the general idea of why your ass smells.
  You see… “Love” and other “emotions” is not any more simple to explain tan why your anus stinks and I’m not the right person to explain either one. But I can tell you that the “emotions” you feel … humans have been feeling for thousands of years, so never undermine your body, the “emotions” you feel are clue to the chemical, hormonal and electrical balances and mixtures in your body… not because Santa Clause threw the roc at the cow.
  You are not the first human in this life and you are not the last.
  You are evolved creature that went through a lot of changes over the years. You see… if you think that Love is an emotion and emotions exits because they just do, then you might as well think that black people exist because someone stuck their head up their ass.
  Your body is so complicated that most people cannot handle it and they get all crazy and stupid. In the modern day, people think they understand, when they really don’t understand anything, this is why there are so many stupid people. It’s not that the human race is a virus, it’s the stupidity and ignorance that’s the virus and its spreads fast so watch out Biatch!
  
  /Mourad.